What is next in 2020? Last New Year’s Eve was hard. So much was unknown to me and to my family. So much going on in myself. How to live in the new of what was in my life? How to embrace it rather than ignore it? Let’s just say I hated last year’s New Year’s Eve.
I will be in this New Year’s eve with no expectations with an undercurrent of hope. The hope that I will get through this evening with a thought next year will be even better.
This coming year, I believe will be better. Maybe harder but better.
I read my horoscope. Something I never do. Here is some of what I read..
The time is now, Sag. With Mars in your sign at the start of 2020 (January 3-February 16), you’re ready to step more fully into your personal power.
But to truly seize the moment, you’ll need to let go of whatever’s weighing you down. The south node enters your sign on May 5, offering major opportunities to clear past karma and break unconscious patterns preventing you from showing up as your best self. Like that old habit of taking yourself too seriously: The north node in your opposite sign, Gemini, teaches you to lighten up, admit your mistakes, and be more open to changing your mind.
It is silly but the proposition said makes for me a path that I want to follow. Letting go of old patterns and bringing forth me. And, doing it lightly. With grace for myself and others.
I continue to move through “Second Mountain” by David Brooks. He spends time reflecting on vocation. Our sense of Call in the world. My sense of vocation to include being a Lutheran pastor has been with me most of my life. Brooks ponders that moment in our life when what we were called to do became clear. The annunciation moment. I had mine as I took leadership roles in the church after confirmation. Comfort in the movement of the church seasons. Lent. Sitting up front. Preaching from the lectern.
I first became a nurse. That fit. It did. I loved so many parts of that role. But, the Call to ordination never went away. My Call could no longer be ignored when I found myself working at a local Lutheran seminary.
I will be purposeful on what it is I am Called to this year. I will listen. I cannot do one without the other. I will do both lightly and with grace. I will time in quiet reflecting and discerning. Thank-you God for this next year. Bring peace, healing, and guidance for me and for all, especially for those I love. Happy New Year!
